ruth
[rooth]
1. pity or compassion.
2. sorrow or grief.
3. self-reproach; contrition; remorse.
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Chuck’s chin lay slumped against
the table. His eyes stared out at the
wall, somehow finding the one spot that was clear of people. His body was hunched over in an almost
painful way. He strove to think about
nothing, and mostly succeeded until one of his friends, Amy, started talking.
“Oh come on, I’m sure it’s not that
bad.” She said. Chuck did not expend the
effort needed to look at the girl, nor did he dignify her words with a response.
A hand clasped his bent over
shoulder in what was supposed to be a friendly, reassuring manner. “Yeah, I
mean, you can always take summer classes.
That’ll make it all fine.” The boy who spoke was another of his friends,
Willy.
The group all looked at their
fallen companion. Even while avoiding
their gazes, Chuck could still feel their pitying stares. He took a deep breath and began to move. He did so slowly, and only enough to bring a
single sheet of paper onto the surface of the table. The others looked at it and recoiled in shock.
“Okay, maybe not.” Willy
corrected. “But that doesn’t mean
anything. I mean, I bet lots of really
successful people failed a grade or two.”
Chuck’s only response was a slow
blink aimed at nothing. His friends kept
talking. They kept trying to console
him; make him feel better about failing the 10th grade. But they did not understand. How could they? They were all smart. They all passed their classes. Amy even did so with straight As. How could they understand the plight of the
idiot? Their attempts at cheering him up
sounded like nothing but them taking pity on him.
Maybe that’s all they ever
did. Maybe he was just too dumb to have
noticed it until now. Maybe they only hung
out with him out of pity, since nobody else would. Maybe they saw him as nothing but a charity
case. Hang out with the pathetic stupid
boy and suddenly they look compassionate and good natured.
Chuck’s mouth curled down and his
brow furrowed. He had just figured it
out. His friendship was based on nothing
but a big pity party. What else could it
be? They were all smart and good looking
and talented. All Chuck had was sheer
size. He was just a big dumb lunk who
was good for nothing but making the others look better. And now that he was being held back a year,
they could feel even better about being his so-called friend. After all, what better way to make themselves
look better than by continuing to allow him to be near them for a prolonged
period of time?
Well, he might be dumb, but Chuck
still had his pride. He would have none
of their false compassion. He would find
new friends. Real friends. Friends who did not hang out with him out of
pity. He stood up quickly, grabbed his
report card and walked out of the room without saying a word.
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So glad I never got held back a grade. Really, that must be terrible for everyone involved, not just the person being held back.